Simplicity

Wednesday, November 30, 2005
11/30/2005 11:20:00 PM

what a great day it has been!

the first day of my liberation, i woke up at 11am. had lunch and started reading a walk to remember.

oh yes, it was touching and i couldnt help but tear. that book is powerful and i think the movie cant convey the intensity of it but anyway..

i moped around the house.. no, i didn't mope the house but i hang around my house.. the living room, my bro's room, the kitchen.. you get the idea.

and then i went out.

ah, the only highlight for today hur hur..

and the best. my ladies! esp one i havent seen for months! yay...was great just chilling and catch with one another.. i miss them... so much!!!!

headed home, actually i didn't want to go home. for some reason i guess.

but a better surprise..

se was at my house downstairs..

he just came back from kuantan! was great to see him and wt and david's family..

and of course, my lovely little isaac and joy!!

i said i love them to bits right???

esp isaac!!! he's so adorable!

don't believe?? i'll show you..

aint he cute?? and this was exactly a year ago.. of course, he's cuter, bigger, stronger this yr! quit asking who the other guy is, concentrate on the little boy!

*****

i wished i could go for this yr's trip actually..remembering last yr was a blast! the guys were great!haha, esp kk n wm n kenny..

talking abt them, i miss them quite a fair bit.. army life seems hard on them..

well well, i look forward to nxt yr's trip..se will be the one organising it! =)

nites all, tmr will be retail therapy with the rtt!

Tuesday, November 29, 2005
11/29/2005 09:28:00 PM

man oh man..

fancy this! it's finally over!

gosh, somehow this time round, it seems harder than the a levels. maybe it's because it's the first uni exams.

maybe i have been sick for the last 2 weeks. doesnt help when exams are around.

but whatver, it's over! time for holidays!

and it's packed till 26th dec already.

haha...

i had this thing during exams today... i cant stand it, i just wanna say it here man..

the poem was talking abt adam and eve and i said this, unrehearsed stuffs..

"the biblical adam and eve signifies humanity at its genesis..."

& i thought it's brillant!!!! cmon, say it's awesome!

ok, madness reigns after exams.

and it's raining now! finally...been so hot for the last 2 days...

need to start packing.. thanks kenny for the bag man...i'll get another disco ball for ya!

talking abt dat.. i miss the kuantan gang.. it has been a year!

oh yea, NOW is the time to make the list of ppl to meet and also get them presents!!

happyhappy!!=)

Monday, November 28, 2005
11/28/2005 04:04:00 PM

very random muses

oh yea, definitely, especially when it's the eve of lit exams. hahha, fancy hating literature exams. yea yea, i know the whole world out there is ready to say "I hate lit!!"

but I don't u see.

was telling cousin wendy( and her lovely baby girl faith!!) that I'm gonna be an english major.(sidetrack: joseph coulnd't stop laughing when i told him dat on friday! growl..!)

haha, she was terribly pleased. and asked whether i'm going to minor in lit. i love cousin wendy, she's another "I wanna be a teacher" inspirator.

minor in lit.... see la ok.

can't believe this. it's lit paper tmr and i'm still here. didn't i say whenever i'm stressed i'll be found here more frequently??

and guess what? I haven't started revising for the paper. much less memorising quotes. better not let dr. g read this man..

and it's abt 24 hours before the paper.

good job. miracles do happen ya know..

and tmr after the paper i need to plan all the things i need to do for hols!

ok, now would you please go and read lolita?

i miss bk tan!!
i miss ek!!
i miss a04 and see u lot on wed yea??? =)

and it seems only yesterdayn that we finished 9008 paper 5.

my oh my..

Thursday, November 24, 2005
11/24/2005 01:26:00 PM

even more ramdom muses

rtt's entry abt sep makes me wanna go for sep too. i shall send in my application after exams later.

dee texted me about the philippines trip meeting tmr! yayers.. i cant wait to get out of sg and breathe some manila air. and who knows, i might see mark chay/gary tan/jos yeo on my way to manila! man, not as if i never seen mark chay before. do you know i studied with him before? haha, well, he was studying beside me when he was still in college and i in sec sch.(gosh, sounds scandalous!)

was mugging with ms k and suddenly i missed a04 and we decided to get the whole crew down to EB or maybely's place for some good catching up.

i realised i'm a very catching up person. each time after some major exams or what not, i wanna catch up with ppl.

and the number one person i want to see now is male best friend number one.it's almost a yr since i last saw him! next is mr ching. i still owe him a meal man.

oh man, the list goes on. in fact, too many!!

and if there's any of my ex students reading this, let ms tan tell u how much i do miss you all.. hopefully i can go back a few days to do some teaching?

maybe...

Wednesday, November 23, 2005
11/23/2005 04:03:00 PM

more random muses

i realised my productivity starts at 10pm and ends at 2am, that's why i decided school is a better place to mug.

a better place indeed.

well, at least i got moving. and one more mindmap and i'm done for history. i cant wait to get an A for that man.

it's 24 more hours to Elang exam, i can't wait to do the paper.

wow, i do sound very enthusiastic about exams hur?

that's how i felt during the A levels. i lost sleep not because i didn't study enough. coz i can't wait to do the paper! haha..

thank God i meet ms k who da pao-ed lunch for me.

and paul for being the mugging kaki while waitng for jas to finish her exams.

and C for waving hi

and S while she rushed for her exams.

and sam who passed by and said hi.

and i saw ALOT of ex-fairsians. my seniors. guess where all fairsians land up in, NUS!

here's a sentence.

I (subject) gave(ditransitive verb) her(NP, indirect object) the laptop(NP, direct object). 2 NPs, of which one can be PP.

because i can rewrite to sentence to be:

I(subject) gave(ditransitive verb) the laptop(NP, direct object) to her(PP, indirect object).

this is what I'm studying now. welcome to the nature of language.....

Monday, November 21, 2005
11/21/2005 09:53:00 PM

random muses.

i got a feeling i'm going to be very crap today. because i'm in a crappy mood and i think not many ppl have seen the crappy and random side of me.i cant wait for this fri. 5000 copies of Fresh. it's totally like a dream.

was telling kenny dat i'll give st a run for her money. but G thinks she's crap! muahaha... dat means i'm even more crap.

i apologise for this randomness. you must realise that my exams has just started and i got no avenue to vent it except through this.

i cant wait for charissa to get back here!!get back quickly fren!! and adrian!!! where have u been man? i havent seen u for 7 months!

i cant wait to speak tagalog also!!and also for the camp!! 3 more weeks to saturate camp..

and to meet mr g!!! havent seen him for such a long time man... the mad a levels' ending in 4 days' time! and all my lovely a04 ladies.. we need some a04 therapy soon man.

sigh, i'm back reminsicing the past. maybe when u get older, u tend to think more about the past? i dunno man.

why do you romanticise the past?

this sounds difficult.

wz was funny yesterday when we were out filming for the video. she screamed in the middle of the forrest! coz it's so stressful to be in yr 3.

i dunno, my mind's not working well. dy calls it fragmentation.

i wonder, when would it be when i can talk the way i did with the a levels subjects?

try localising indifference curve that shows the preference for chinese secret societies with lolita's help and thus u will have a semantic shift.

not bad an attempt hur?

charissa suggests to go UC Berk for exchange. or Uni of Texas so that i can train with the queen. and she can visit me there!

so it's either UC B, Uni of T or Uni of Melb for exchange.. maybe i should go China and improve my chinese. jason has been teasing me too much abt it.

suddenly, i feel like backpacking.....

Friday, November 18, 2005
11/18/2005 11:38:00 PM

This is interlude from the previous thread.. And here's a dose of why I want to be a teacher.

Realised I have been blogging regularly?

Because the exams are coming. Blogging is the key to straight As.

REALLY.

Gotcha!

I dare to blog because I dare say I've studied hard enough for today.

Back to why I want to be a teacher.

Back in primary school, I had a teacher who believed in me. That's why I became a prefect and from that day on, what everyone describe me as "a ra ra person", as if I was a born leader. Maybe I was, given that I have 2 brothers to lead (& to boss them around). Not fogetting I was a Junior Leader (gb girls ought to know what that means.)

And I "shunned" responsibility in secondary school only to find out that my squad won the best squad. Guess who was the squad leader? (Quite enough of my glorious past hur hur.)

I think I have been blessed. Each stage of my schooling (& working) life, there had been a teacher/mentor/ who was willing to go that extra mile for me. In their unassuming ways of course.

And this primary school teacher of mine became pretty much like a confidente to me and we becaome friends. Teacher-student turned friends.

Likewise, my lit tutor was the one who saw me through sweat, blood, ink, tears and prayers during A levels, together with 4 very precious girlfriends.

And those days of being a (relief) teacher myself, I see real life action and examples. There is a difference being a student knowing your teacher and being a colleague to a teacher. I shan't mention names, but there were handful of teachers who inspired me the most.

But my primary school teacher I would never forget her.

Yet the news of her leaving for a new posting in another country left me feeling awkward. Fancy going back to school not seeing her.

I'll definitely miss her. For she has been a source of encouragment to me and a blessing in my life and also my inspiration.

That's why I want to be a teacher. An excellant teacher not only educate, but inspire her students.

Thank you Jessie, for being who you are and what you did for me.

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But I have yet to decide what to major in so that I can teach!

Let's poll..

English/Literature or E n A Math?

Thursday, November 17, 2005
11/17/2005 10:44:00 PM

Love is...(Part One of Five)

I'll be a love expert by the end of this article. What is love and all that it encompasses. I dare not say I have experienced a lot, but I dare say that I have seen so many examples around to be bold enough to say I do know a great deal about it.

A few months back, I was writing an article to advise single freshmen and women about this issue of the heart. Of course, when you make those bold statements, you put yourself in the position to be tried and tested. To see whether you are a woman of your word so on and so forth.

And indeed, I was shown many examples, some are pretty negative demonstrations I must say. What is the conclusion of the matter? What is love then?

Half a year ago, I wrote something about this topic and six months later, I'm on another level altogether. Love is definitely a tricky thing. But if it has become so tricky that you have to hesitate whether or not to tell the person of your intention, and obviously, that is not love. That is selfishness at its highest. The desire and need for self-satisfaction and instant gratification of something beautiful, that would blossom into a fruitful tree if you had the patience to wait. Note that waiting and hesitating are two different issues being dealt here.

Being a teacher for those few months allowed me to touch base with whom I was six years back. Of course, back then, boys are the number one enemy on my list and boy-girl relationship type was something that least concerned me.

But like a normal teenager, I saw many friends getting into this fascinating cycle of events known as "steadying" and breaking up at a pace that is so frightening. Of course, I had my fair share of seeing seniors in school who are very boyish-looking, yes; they were very cute in fact. Infatuation was commonplace.

For some reason or another, I never saw myself being part of the entity "We". Maybe I'm too individualistic and free-spirited to be. Oh yes, call me feminist for all I care, feminist to an extend I am.

But I believe in the role of marriage. Not the warped sense but the sanctity and holiness of it.
That is love at its zenith. It is a leap of faith, to entrust your all to someone who is so intensely close to you yet at the same time in many ways, a complete stranger.

Love is an expression of the human experience, and marriage is the manifestation of it. To say "I love you" is not just mere three words to express your endless devotion but O! The willingness to risk it all.

Before you utter "I love you" to this particular girl/boy, are you ready to risk everything, even your own life, so to speak?

To be continued...

Tuesday, November 15, 2005
11/15/2005 08:06:00 PM

Baby Kochamma picked up her maroon diary which came with its own pen. She turned to 19 June and made a fresh entry. Her manner was routine. I love you I love you.

Every page in the diary had an identical entry. She had a case full of diaries with identical entries. Some said more that just that. Some had the day's accounts, To-do lists, snatches of favourite dialogue from favourite soup opears, But even these entries all began with the same words: I love you I love you...

And every night, night after night, year after year, in diary after diary, she wrote: I love you, I love you...

-an extract from The God of Small Things by Arundhati Roy.

To be Continued...

Saturday, November 12, 2005
11/12/2005 08:49:00 PM

Proverb of the day

"Charm is deceitful and beauty is passing, But a woman who fears the Lord, she shall be greatly praised."

amen amen...

this makes sense isn't it? all that beauty is temporal, what matters most is the character of the person. more so, the spirituality of the person. there is a difference between being religious and spiritual. a huge one in fact.

was reading this piece of article on the net about what men want. what sort of women they marry.

no, don't get me wrong, i'm still in that dormant mood, there is no rush for me in this respect. i have pretty much alot of time before i get attached.

it's just that this article reminds me that beauty is more than skin deep. and that proverb of course.

i guess guys wanna have some fun before they settle down with a girl who is "good". now, good is very subjective isnt it?

why not be that different man/woman? be that man a woman can trust her all in you. be that woman who exempifies Proverbs 31.

now, some of you are too young to understand what i am saying.

wait, not that i understand the intensity of what i have just written.

but as i look at those around me and i realised i am surrounded by alot of Proverbs 31 women.

and also men whom ladies can trust.

and i learn from their examples. =)

Wednesday, November 09, 2005
11/09/2005 08:50:00 PM

the calm before the storm...

it's 2050h, nus.

it's going to be a long night...

nah, no comforts of the bed...

i'm staying up to stardee...

yes, in my lovely school.

let the mugging camp begin.

just 2 things on my agenda.

1) Southeast asia
2) Economics

Let's go.

Monday, November 07, 2005
11/07/2005 09:10:00 PM

what my boss said just now struck me.

went shopping for the charity sale materials with him and wee teck.man, so many things! amazing...i keep getting the feeling that both of them are very much like businessmen and especially being entreprenuers! alot to learn from them.. i fact i think this is better than studying. working alongside them allows me to learn alot of things that i need when i become a teacher.

oh yes, back to what my boss said.

he said he has not reached the point of working endlessly for 3 days.

and to me that sounds good. can u imagine not sleeping for 3 days but to make sure of the time to do your work?

i know, for you all, it's time to play and have chalets and all...

but for me, these 2 weeks are precious.

i endeavour not to sleep for the next few days. time to camp in school to study and also to work on the charity sale.

sounds fun hur hur?

no worries, the body can take the stress. in fact i believe my tolerance for stress has risen to a new level.

Saturday, November 05, 2005
11/05/2005 12:32:00 AM

kenny would be proud to see this. i'm reflecting again.

as i have said, the mad rush of essays is over. and now the moment of truth. phew.. not bad grades, in fact i would say given the fact that i haven't been writing academic essays for 10 months, it is good!

esp the lit one.

but of course, this is not the purpose of this entry.

i'm a fan of that 9pm show man. for some reason. and what struck me is this thing about outward appearance vs inner beauty. yes yes, we can all concur that beauty is more than skin deep yada yada yada.

but seriously, what is the basis of getting into a relationship/being in love?

the subject of love i have expounded in my essay using the 4 meanings of love in greek.

but prof's 6 lovers lecture overwhelmed me.

how many times have we behaved like the mother who simply can't stand the sight of the daughter's boyfriend? he being not so good looking after all. and how many times we are smitten by those hunky looking guys around. karen was v funny today, she just had to squeal and gush over that guy who was sitting behind us during lecture today.

i don't find him cute. wait, i don't find anyone cute these days.

oh yes, beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder, most of us would say.

but let's be frank.

at the end of the day, do we need a chio girl or a cute boy? of course, u should set ur standards accordingly but cmon.....

we need partners with qualities that revealed only under extreme conditions.

i've read of this once...

this man invested heavily in a business but it failed. one evening, he went back home for dinner and found out that there was no light in the house. and he asked his wife what happened and his wife said they are eating by the candlelight today. he was certainly amused. but while so, he switched on the bathroom light only to find out that it doesnt work. puzzled, he asked his wife about it only to found out that she burst out crying.

his wife concealed the fact that they had no money to pay for their electricity bills by saying they are eating a candlelight dinner.

i thought the story was touching. she could have just make a fuss over the financial difficulties that they were facing intead to be so humourous.

would your chio girl/cute guy make a fuss/throw temper when the tough gets going?