Simplicity

Tuesday, January 31, 2006
1/31/2006 12:25:00 PM

Happy Lunar New Year! Well, after all the visiting and all the ang pow collecting, it's time to check out some photos. And this is the FIRST time i'm showing the whole world my 2 younger and handsome brothers! =)

Introducing the 2 Mr Tans!(& with me in the middle.)

And here's the lastest addition to my maternal family. She was still in my cousin's womb a yr ago and now she's a cutesy lovable almost 1 yr old. Baby mei mei Faith!

And Faithy has a elder sister!

Clara! She's turning 4 this year. Absolutely Adorable! Here's her playing at the playground.

And aunty Lijuan (Well, they address me by my chinese name.) has the responsibility to groom her little niece to be a cover shot model!

I love this shot of her!!

And last but not least, here's a picture of the two sisters!

Aren't they cute? I simply adore the both of them. Sweet little princesses! =)

Saturday, January 28, 2006
1/28/2006 07:34:00 PM

Some randome muses

#1 While we were at Fort Canning, near ROM this morning, I had the urge to get married. Haha, in fact, it has been on my mind the last few days. I wanna get married at 22! Fancy this, Mrs Hannah ***** (No, The * doesnt signify how many letters there are in his surname!), Nus yr 3. Whoa. I don't know whu such urge these days but yea.

#2 I have a foreboding feeling this Chinese New Year. I think everyone would be talking about me studying in Uni yada yada yada. Bleah, just make sure they don't have the match-making glint in their eyes.

#3 Sigh, CNY also means it's time to catch up with all the readings I have been neglecting. Sometimes, I think I got no sense of time management! Bleah, and I have to do a workshop on time mangement...

#4 Eeks, I can't stand my hair. It's freaking too long for my own good. I wanted to cut them but I can't bear. It's my crowning glory. But being a social rebel and non-conformist, knowing that guys like girls with long hair, I'll cut my hair.

#5For some strange reason, CNY makes me miss wm alot. Don't ask why, I got no explanation.

#6 Oh yar, I've thought of it. IF I am not going to teach next time, I'll be an educational tour guide. I'll bring you to Lorong Buangkok!!

#7 Time to clean the room, Happy Lunar New Year!

Friday, January 27, 2006
1/27/2006 11:06:00 PM

For those who did not see me, yes I went back to NH this afternoon.

And I have lots to say.

I was kind of on the verge of crying when all of you walked passed me after the concert, smiling(hesistantly though) at me. Some screaming, "Oh, Ms Tan!" some smiling shyly, some totally ignored me.

Well, no matter what your response was, it was great to be visiting you all.

And to tell you the truth, I felt displaced. I'm actually an undergrad YET I had the privilege to have so many students remmebering me. Thank You for making my day.

And it's sure an interesting sight to see you boys in long pants! That's what really makes me smile. Seeing you all growing up and entering into another phase of your life. I commented to Mr. Tan that you are looked so grown-up in long pants. Oh yes, I feel old.

Sometimes I guess I got this urge to quit Uni and go back to NH to be a relief teacher again. I wish I was born 3 yrs earlier...

But for now, I shall content with dreaming my teacher dreams.

1/27/2006 12:32:00 AM

Wow, has bee a week since I blogged.

Decided it's time for something fresh and plugged in a new layout.

Busy is an understatement. Things at school's full swing. Well, kinda, after the CNY madness(and the glint in their eyes plus their attempt to "help" me. Thank you very much, I'll "help" myself.)

I jogged back to NH on Wed and I LITERALLY jogged passed a group of you.

Maybe in my running gear I looked younger. And I take that as a good sign. Seriously, if you bum into me anywhere, just say hi. Even if I'm with a guy friend or something. Hey, isn't that a piece of juicy news to bring back to school the next day?

After 3 Socio lectures, I realised I have been very much a Sociologist at heart. Suddenly, what Prof said makes so much sense.Well well, nothing is definite yet so.

se was sharing just now. He's still so head-prefect! And I felt like a Sec 1 all over again. =)

I realised seeing se was the only highlight this week. The whole week was so school-related. Lectures, tutorials, lab...

I got a shock when I heard about my friend(my age) getting together with a guy who's 3 yrs younger than her. 20 yr old + 17 yr old.

It's me dating my brother. that's INCEST. What a taboo. I can never tolerate such a relationship. Sorry, I do not have a high threshold for such a thing. For me that is.

But since my friend is so happy with her current partner, I wish her all the best. I shall not superimpose my expectation on her. Enough said.

Time for more Socio readings. See? I'm slogging hard even it's the eve of the eve of CNY!

Friday, January 20, 2006
1/20/2006 11:33:00 PM

can i tell you a secret?

i have been hanging out in clementi quite a fair bit last week. on monday to buy bdae cake for my brother and wed to meet a fren for dinner.

well, i was hoping to catch the sight of you students.

and i saw some of you! well, from afar that is. especially this an ex-sec2 boy who is in sec3 this yr. it warms my heart to see him in long pants.

makes me feel as if my son is going to the army sort of feeling. i feel myself growing old.

some one asked why i never go back nanhua.

i want to. especially it's pretty near my school.

well, actually i jog from my house to nanhua a couple of times. the security people could recognise me!

but i'm really busy these days. (NO, not with boyfriend that is.)

BUT.

let me know if there's Chinese New Year celebrations. i MIGHT pop over to say hi and see how you all are doing then go back for lectures.

for those who forgot how i looked. well, maybe i'll post a recent pic of me soon.

but i look the same. well, just longer hair and look younger. why? because i don't need to mark your homework anymore!~

Wednesday, January 18, 2006
1/18/2006 11:08:00 AM

Just a quick entry before I head to engine for my socio lecture.

It has been 4 months since I stopped teaching proper.

I miss teaching terribly. I was rummaging through my boxes to get some recycled paper to do my math tutorial and I stumbled upon some of the worksheets that I designed for my classes.

And I have to say this, the most memorable was the SIMPLE plan. (Lit classes, remember???) Well, maybe you don't remember but I've never done such a thing before. To me, it was a sense of achievement. And I count it a privilege to teach Literature and English.

Yes, I guess I'm a Literature student at heart also.

Then I stumbled upon this quote that left me with goosebumps(for a good reason), assuring me what I'm called for. For such a time like this.

"As a teacher, my job is to teach the masses while reaching out to the hurt, lost or misdirected child."

WOW. That is my calling.

Since young, I have always aspired to be...

1) Poet (checked--my college Lit publication has a collection of my poems and Works of Grace holds 75 and counting poems.)

2) Columnist/Journalist (checked-- see below, Fresh Magazine, soon-to-be Herald and Gen webbie)

3)Teacher (5 months and counting.)

4) Wedding Planner (semi-checked-- Andrea's wedding in 3 yrs, Jason's wedding in 7 yrs.)

Now I can die(but nope, not yet, God is not done with my life yet.) without regrets.

Anyway, click here to read my very first article which the ASPIRE thought it's cool to publish.

Saturday, January 14, 2006
1/14/2006 12:12:00 AM

i dunno where to start.

okay, happy bdae joe, though i dun get to see ya around anymore.

nxt, went back to sec sch with rache and then went to clooege for lunch. i missed the mixed rice aunty! haha... yea man, saw sas and some other teachers. elit's out, my poems are in elit!

must go buy!!!!!

okay, besides that, saw mr tan and he has a blog!!!!!! can u imagine that?????

okay, then suppose to play tennis with k but he teaching pe..

went for MATH lect with rache in uni and cheese prata after that...

and k came to drive me and her. waited for charissa at holland v to go chomps!!

and food there is good!!!! enough said.

i wante to go home but she dragged me to see a/p tan's son.

good job.haha

those guys were hilarious! too much swearing for my liking man.

and ben is there! my gosh, i kinda got a shock when i saw him man...

okies, then she drove me home. and reiner was totally gone, same as prof's son.. gosh.

to think dat pinky guy's gonna be a doc studying at oxford and prof's son is gonna be a lawyer.

seriously, what is this world coming to man????

depressed army guys. forgive them!

anyway, time to sleep! i've been late almost everyday, time to hang out at home.

*char's gonna get me another pair of birks!!!*

Thursday, January 12, 2006
1/12/2006 06:36:00 PM

You Should Date A Swede!

You're a romantic, albeit an understated and practical one.It's more about a steady partnership for you, not unrestrained fallingYour Swede will give you the unwavering love you craveWhile making up some mean pancakes and meatballs on the side!

Which Foreign Guy Should You Date?

* i was hoping for a Canadian! winkwinkdaffy*

Monday, January 09, 2006
1/09/2006 08:44:00 AM

i woke up early this morning to pass sth to a friend @ fairfield bus stop.

and i thought i heard wrongly.

i think i heard mr wee's voice over the mike at MY SCHOOL.

he's back???

we need more familiar faces back in MY SCHOOL.

all right, guess that adviser number one was right.

i'll be back in MY SCHOOL to teach english and lit.

i'm in the "i miss my secondary school" mode.

we are 118 this yr.

when i was in sec1, school did a time capsule and kept it somewhere in school. and when we turn 26, we'll all go back and open the time capsule.

se was the one who kept it. coz he was the head prefect and i looked up to him.

i still look up to him. Big time.

i tell you, i'm proud to be called a Fairsian.

although this sounds really cliched, i must say this.

Once a Fairsian, Always a Fairsian.

i don't know about your school but in my school when we see ex-Farisians, there's this feeling called family warmth. and you can go on and on talking about the school, teachers and friends. yes, even if you are of different year.

things may change, we may live our lives differently, but.

Once a Fairsian, Always a Fairsian. this is a fact you can't deny.

for some people whose names are Unspeakable, shame on you for accusing MY SCHOOL for being not a good school.

to me, it is the place where God is, and i want to be there because God is there. This beats being in school that has lots of achievements and prestige.

But without the presence of God.

Soon, it would be a place where God manifests His presence.

watch and see.

Thursday, January 05, 2006
1/05/2006 10:01:00 PM

today i shall choose to dwell on happier stuff.

no, not because i'm sad or upset by some things. just a little troubled by the system.

before i continue, hope that 2006 has been great so far.

i can sense that 2006 is a difficult yr for me. i got a huge decision to make that would affect the next 7 years of my life.

and sometimes, i suspect that i'm not ready to make such a huge decision on my own. maybe i'm not so grown-up afterall.

or maybe such a responsibility is not easy to shoulder in the first place.

***
i have been teaching at my own sch the past few days. my own pri sch. and i would say the feeling is good.to learn how to manage kids is not easy. being a form teacher is not easy. especially you have to see the class for 2 hours straight almost everyday.

(i remembered i had 2 hours with 102'05 before right?)

***
to learn from the guru is just so amazing.

this is where i have to get things right.

should i apply to be a primary or secondary school teacher?

can i tell you the truth and be frank?

i got no answer to this question.

but i thank God for my adviser who helped to clear my thoughts.

i got no answer but my mind is clearer.

***
by the way, can i tell you lot what i have been teaching my primary five class about?

poetry.

'tis true! what a coincidence isn't it? i thought i was a poetry teacher about 5 months ago?

***
at the end of the day, i have to concentrate on what i am suppose to do first. that is, inasmuch i love being a teacher.

i am first a student. and i love being a student.